Sheer boredom and nothingness...

Uh-oh.. Here it comes again..

That feeling of lethargy is creeping up..I can feel it swirling around me..taunting me..numbing me..making me sleepy.. *YAWN*

Haay...Can I just bitch for a little while? I promise it's not a permanent phase..I just need this time to vent...

- I hate browsing through friendster...yet I cant seem to stop my fingers from typing www.fri...It's an addiction... I hate browsing because I'd be curious to see how other people are doing in their lives..especially those that I've known in school.. when i do click on their pages I get a little jealous to see how much they're starting to break free from their old selves...sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse, but still very different.

I feel like I never changed. It seems to me that the world is moving but I stopped moving with it at some point. Did everyone just grow up? Was I sleeping when all this happened? Have I changed too? If i did,I certainly don't feel like I did.. *scratches head*

- To all those with "Bora Pics" in their friendsters...all I can say is... grr.. enough already with the bikini poses...it's "tag-ulan" (rainy season) Ya'll are going to catch a frickin cold...I wonder why there are no people posing in their sweaters. Gusto ninyo naman bagayan yung season diba? Magkapote kayo.. sheesh...

- Do any of you feel like you're taking a path in life that feels so far from what you planned yourself to take back when you were still a little kid? I know life cannot be planned really..and yes yes.. i know it'll work out for the best..eventually(maybe)..But I wonder how some people are able to just grab their life by the cajones and lead it to where they really want it to go. Maybe i just lack initiative..or I'm not agressive enough to go for things...but you know what's worse than being all of the things that I've just said? Not knowing exactly where I want to be in the future. I lost sight of what I had hoped to be. Now I'm just going through the motions of everyday routines. Just a seemingly happy wanderer... a wallflower in life...

Bottomline: I just don't want to die without leaving a mark on this world. It's just that simple.

- Do you guys wonder what color your energies(or auras) are sometimes? If you believe in them I mean..:) hahahaha? I'm really listening to AMBER by 311 kasi..don't mind me...unless you really have wondered sometime before then indulge me ^_^

- Hmm...I still have 30 minutes before I should start walking back to class...

- I really want to go to Japan. It's been a dream of mine since..well.. since forever... Life seems so... right... there.. No one gives a shit about the way you dress (maybe beacause there's bound to be someone who threw on weirder rags than what you have on), Life can either be fast, fun and technologically frantic (if you go to Tokyo or other urban places) or it can be very relaxing and down to earh(if you go to the provinces or the temples, their food is HELLA GOOD(I don't know for sure but I bet it is)and the stuff there is K-A-W-A-I-I!!! I really can't wait to save up enough so I can spend a good 3 weeks there with enough for food, shopping and decent lodging.

Hmm... Hard to have a reall really fun day (Last Saturday July 24,2005) then have to go back to my normal life...Neko I blame you for this! You just HAD to show me Kero... Masyado yata ako naaliw..^_^ hihihi! Waya ako biwog kasi laro sa bahay! Niyah! hahahahah!^_^

If you're still reading up to this point...I admire your tenacity! *clap clap clap!* hihihi! ^_^

That's about all folks! =) Chanks you..chanks you...*bow bow*

Oh btw! Did you guys watch CSI season ender last night?? It was the BEST! hahaha!!! astig!!!! ^_^ La lang!